I’m trying to do my best

I’m trying to do my best

After months aku x post aper2, today tetibe dtg plak inspirasi nk menulis ni..I’m trying to do my best..not for me, but for you.. yes, u heard it right, all for you…Because???

I don’t know..

I don’t know why I’m trying so hard

I kept trying n trying..till I know the tears that I shed is not crystal clear anymore..

Its red in colour..

Fyi, that the sign that im hurt…

But then, what did u do???

You throw it away, like it was nothing

The tears that I shed, the blood that spilled..

You make it like.. “ohhh….”

That it…

Aku tak tau nk cakap ape. Kenkadang aku terpikir jugak, aper la salah aku kat dia ni sampai dia treats aku like I’m nothing. When I’m needed..yes, where is me eh??? Haaaa, there you are. Tapi kalau sebaliknya, it is like my existence in this earth disappear. Diakui mmg aku ni kuat kecik ati. Kat muka aku tak tunjuk sangat, tapi deep down the wound is there. Bapak sedare aku penah bagitau kat my dad, “ur daughter tu pendendam orangnyer. Don’t make her mad at you for long time, don’t treat her mother wrongly, don’t ignore her advise for you.. she only doing that to protect..” at first when I heard about this, I cried a lot..

Yes I admit,

My language is harsh

I barely smile but often laugh

I like give command but that for goods of you, not me

I want something but I sure can tolerate

But the thing is don’t hurt me

Because once you hurt me, I cant forget it..

I hate this part of me

Maybe that the reason people like to hurt me

Please don’t…

Lepas aku dah taip poem ntah aper-aper ni ntah, aku terpikir..perlu ker aku depressed2 macam ni? Aku emo-emo pun keadaan masih sama, aku masih kat sini, awak still kat situ.. nothing change.. kan? With puffy eyes and running nose, aku pun buat conclusion ni jer…

“I miss my mom…MOMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!”

life's suck!

Life's sucks!!!!

pagi2 suda mencarut but who cares!!!~~LALALALALA
super duper pissed off with someone that didnt realize their fault but den dey didnt realize anything at all..stupid idiot baka babo..
i wish you all the best in ur life, maybe got something like C- or maybe FAIL..hahahahaha, wish you all the best my dear...

nway, minggu lepas punyer running man xtguk lagi coz UUM still main itu block memblock!
Seems like evry person who is living in the UUM realize that
we
can
actually
open
MEDIAFIRE again ( whoever yg x perasan lagi, pity u^^ )
That a gud news la for someone yg gila download like me..
but den..
UUM block DAILYMOTION pulakkkkkk!!!
god, nitemare!!! my running man~~ T_T
I want to watch the Oh Ji Ho's episode!!!


Today, i'm fasting..happy Lapar Days to meeee^^^
n last but not least...jeng jeng jeng~~~

yeap..thats right... he is my property..so..back off evy1!! hahhaha

Come Back To Me Again

Song Title : Come Back To Me Again
Artist : Kim Jong Kook ( feat LeesSang's Gary )

What can I say...The song, the mv...SUPERB!!! The artwork, I wish I can do it..Gila daebakkkk..so talented, sape punya tangan tu???..BTW, I love Gary's voice n Jong Kook oppa, you're da best!!! Y both of you didnt perform da song??? Cant imagine Gary's peaceful face singing this kekekekeke..nway, I LOVE THIS SONG!!

lyric~

Yeah…
이별은 사랑을 준다 이별은 미안한 마음만 준다
그래서 결국엔 난 다시 이렇게 기다린다

oooohhhh ooohhhh waaahhhh

Rap) 너 없는 아침은 눈뜨자마자 외롭고
손에 낀 반지는 빛과 색을 잃었고
아픔만 삼키는 내 목은 할말을 잃었다
조금씩 조금씩 내 모든 것이 그대로 멈춘다
이별은 사랑을 준다 이별은 미안한 마음만 준다
그래서 결국엔 널 다시 이렇게 기다린다
바보처럼 니가 날 다시 사랑할 때까지
예전처럼 널 품에 안고 내가 행복해 미칠 때까지

*. 언제나처럼 다시 만날 거라 착각을 했었지
이젠 사랑한다는 말로만은 너를 붙잡을 수 없어 또 다른 변명도
이제는 늦었다는 걸 알아 하지만
세상의 어떤 그 누구도 너를 대신할 수 없어
나에겐 언제나 살아있는 너 하나 뿐인걸

Rap) 눈 앞에 니 모습 아른거려 눈을 감지 못한다
사랑 때문에 잠 못 이루는 밤 그것이 가장 고통스럽다
다 줘 보지도 못한 내 맘 속에 너란 존재는 아직 사랑이다
사소한 다툼도 크고 작은 아픔도 차가웠던 말투도
앞으로 견뎌야만 하는 모든 것도 나에겐 사랑이다
떠났지만 지금 내 곁엔 없지만
너의 이름은 나에겐 아직 강렬한 사랑이다

*. Repeat

너도 알잖니 너 없이 살수 없는 나를
너를 지켜줄께 죽는 그날까지
널 잃고 싶지 않아
다시 내게로 돌아와

*. Repeat x2

Light Go On Again

BEAST is BACK!!! I swear I love this guys so damn SHIT!!! They r back with mini album after their gudbye stage which i think not 1 month yet!!! damn!! ALL THE SONGS ARE LOVE

The 4th Mini Album : BEAST - Light Go On Again
Language : Korean
Date Of Release : 9 November 2010
Tracklist :
1. Light Go On Again
2. Beautiful
3. I Like You The Best (니가 제일 좋아)
4. Lightless
5. I'm Sorry

Personally I like Beautiful and Light Go On Again the MOST!!! Beautiful is such a LOVE!!! When the boy that you love sing this song to you, i swear you will turn into puddle of mud.. just imagine BEAST sang this song to you....I WANT BEAST boys SING THIS SONG TO ME!!! ( imagine Oasis performance...aa...AAAHHHH!!!! naneul hagoshippeooooo!!! Jaeballll!!! ) Sorry, I lose my mind for a while..

Beautiful, my girl.
My beautiful my girl and I
So beautiful, my girl.
In the Cube…

Haha girl. This is my confession.
Drop that beat.

Oh, listen to my heart. Listen, listen to my heart.
Even though I can’t describe you with words.

I’ll just tell you my heart in my style.
Oh listen, listen, listen girl

Nothing better than you.
Even if I’m given the entire world
You You You You
I can’t trade it for you

Hey baby girl, everyday is joyful.
Honestly, I’m a little scared, no matter what anyone says you’re
I want

So beautiful, my girl.
(you) Oh oh girl (you) oh oh girl even if time passes
I, more than anyone, will more more more
I will treasure you, my girl, I’ll give you everything

You, You, to you, you
I can run no matter where you are I always think about you
I, more than now, will more more more
I will love you my girl
You you you my girl

(you) oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
You my beautiful
Nothing better than you
Oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
You my beautiful

Don't be shy Girl

In your hard times, always, I’ll be there
Anytime, come, I hold you in my embrace

Just close your eyes and listen, listen to my heart
oh listen listen listen girl

Nothing better than you
Nobody can block it
You You You You
My heart that is leaning towards you

Even if all of my 24 hours in a day are for you
It’s me who doesn’t think any of it is wasteful
Just take my hand and fly

So beautiful, my girl.
(you) Oh oh girl (you) oh oh girl even if time passes
I, more than anybody, will more more more
I will treasure you, my girl, I’ll give you everything

You, You, to you, you
I can run no matter where you are I always think about you
I, more than anybody, will more more more
I will love you my girl
You you you my girl

(you) oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
You my beautiful
Nothing better than you
oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
(you) my beautiful Beautiful my girl

Make a love, baby Just make a love
Feeling in my heart
So nice

So beautiful, my girl.
(you) Oh oh girl (you) oh oh girl even if time passes
I, more than anybody, will more more more
I will treasure you, my girl, I’ll give you everything

You, You, to you, you
Even if you’re far away, I can feel it I’m always dreaming about you
I, more than now, will more more more
I will love you my girl
You you you my girl

(you) oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
You my beautiful
Nothing better than you
oh beautiful (you) so beautiful
(you) my beautiful
Nothing better than you

creadit : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QKceHQw_MY

Light Go On Again is DAEBAKKKKK!!! I love this type of music n when I 1st heard tis album, let just said I kept repeating it be4 I move on into next track^^

usually we heard hard beat dance music for some artist to make comeback, but i think this type of music is enough to make them win no#1 again...go BEAST!!!
overall...I want to give 10 over 10 to this album!!! its soooo gud that i feel like I WANT TO BUY THIS ALBUM...only of BEASTy boys come to Malaysia again...hahahaha
BEAST AIRLINE, please la datang Malaysia...ok???

p/s : something tick in my heart...is it love??? ^^

headache...heartache...

heartache...headache!!! ARGHHHHH!!! tension tension tension..too much pressure...tensen weyhhhhhh!!!!
Finally hujan sudah berhenti di kedah ini..YAY!!! no more banjir2 in UUM... Alhamdulillah... but ME still in banjir...:-p whatever lah..
got migraine today..really2 bad.. it stopped this afternoon but tonight dia datang balik...grrrr....tension!!! I buy koyok just now, wanna lekat to my pelipis afta this...



PICTURE FOR DA DAY!!! my dashboard..cantik kan??? there is ABC, Japanese, Korean and Chinese character... hahaha so fail lah :-p


listening to - 2NE1 : Its Hurt
mood - T_T

cuba menjadi waras untuk seketika~~

UUM banjirrrr~~~
Its not funny weyhhhh... Its been raining for 3 days straight my i swore my feet is freezing!!!
Luckily today, da rain finally stopped...Alhamdulillah~ Syukur...
but da condition now is worse~~~!!! browse for the news n pict and you will know what i mean...
The worse part is right now UUM is having da Convocation Days~~ WAAAA..poor all families n senior2 yg datang..i heard today's convo is being posponed...really??? Damn..its sucks weyyyy especially for families yang datang dari jauh like Indonesia or Sabah Sarawak..
I hope when my turn let it be running smoothly..jgn ader postpone2 or whatsoever lahhhh~~~

i try to be sane....not insane...for this couple of days...but..well let just say da plan is totally ruined...all thanks to mood ruiner...aka someone that managed to ruin it lahhhh...

EXAM IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER BEYBEHHHH!!~~~
here is my exam schedule...I start early...and finish early...and the gaps...SCARY~~TT__TT

8/11/2010 BKAT3023 2.30PM
ok, tax for the 1st day...just great =_='

10/11/2010 BKAM3033 9.00PM
Management...yeyeahhhh^^

11/11/2010 BKAL3023 9.00PM
Public Sector...TT__TT

15/11/2010 GLUL3033 9.00PM
Company Law...=_=

20/11/2010 BKAF3073 9.00PM
OMG! ACCOUNT!!!

21/11/2010 GLUL3023 9.00PM
Biz LAw....buli jadi lawyer pasni...=_='

told ya ady, the gaps is really really scary weiii...only 1 or 2 day...nearly none pun ader!!! grrr...so scary... God, please help me...myself...please help yourself too..XD

Twin Tower KLCC~~~

10/10/10...
Actually what exactly that I want t write eh???? ohhhh, about our KLCC twin tower...

I've been thinking why KLCC is twin...why built it twin?? why not bet the tower be only 1 that standing up reaching the skies....
Menara KL is built with only 1 tower raised up...n KLCC built up with 2 tower...y eh??


there goes my sappy + abnormal mind... KLCC is build up like that because THEY ARE MARRIED!! HAHAHAHA
okay okay...such a mood spoiler la me nie...here what I think la wen I see KLCC..
That tower even though it reach up skies and be the tallest tower in the world..they are actually not alone... seeeeee, they are twin.. they are two of them..the right one...and the left one...
The right one accompany the left one and vise versa... they have a bridge that connecting them which always would remind them that they are not alone... both of them would support each other from the cold of rain and the heat of sun...if both want to fail, they fail long time ago but they r still there...two of them^^

it gave me idea that it is the same for us.. Yes, we can get the most highest paid in the world, the most respectable title, the most highest rank.... but what if we fall down if we r all alone???
people always do this nowadays, cheating, lying, backstabbing!! y??? what if we work together??? dont be so selfish laaa~~~
it is possible that we can reach high up to skies just like KLCC if we work together??? IT IS POSSIBLE PEOPLE!!!

it remind me of titanic...you jump I jump...at least we r dying together...XD...hahaha, i'm abnormal today..too sappy, too emotional...forgive me PM for manipulating your ideas of KLCC.. people, do think of my post here when you see our KLCC k???
I wish that I can have someone that can accompany me now just like KLCC... ^^
is next next tower that we gonna built up is triple tower??? who knows??? XD